I spent a lot of time wandering.
I’ve changed my mind a half dozen times. I’ve tried on different personas like I’m trying to find the perfect dress. I’ve read book after book, blog after blog, article after article, trying to find my own way. My own voice. My own thing.
I tried to find my Self by trying too many things.
When I finally stopped running around and stopped trying so hard, I started to see who I truly was. It was when I quieted down and stopped trying to fill my life with noise and music and talking and television and other people and sat with myself
And I definitely love to talk about food.
I love to listen to chefs tell me why they make their pasta with their hands instead of a food processor. I will listen to a bartender as they wax poetic about the difference between whisky, Scotch and bourbon. I want to hear about the family meals your grandma made and why she was brand-loyal to that one label of mayonnaise for 45 years.
I want to hear about why you find the farmers market overwhelming. I want to hear about that one time you blew a pressure cooker lid off and that’s why you haven’t used one since. I LIVE to listen to the epic story of you trying to learn to open oysters and nearly taking off half your hand. I thoroughly enjoy my brother’s Instagram when he’s up in his kitchen at work.
HECK YES, I WANT TO SEE YOUR KITCHEN SCARS.
This is what lights me up. This is what turns my crank, what makes my life worth living: FOOD and the stories behind it.
I’m going to keep talking about food. I’m going to continue to bring you the color and chaos that you’ve come to love from me.
What am I trying to say? This: I want to try out for Next Food Network Star next year.
It’s scary AF to say that out loud to the entire internet. It’s my big huge hairy goal and it’s scary to admit I even have one, let alone type those words out. I’ve said it to smaller pockets of carefully curated eyes, because I know that they’re supportive.
I’m good with it though. I’ve made some big proclamations on the internet before and not followed through. I made the announcement and then ran and hid and tried to bury it.
Not this time.
So that means we are embarking on a big ole journey of food. I need to perfect those techniques I know, and learn more about the ones I don’t. I wrote a huge list of things I want to learn to do, and broke it into sections to make it more manageable.
You truly don’t realize how much you DON’T know about a subject until you make a list. It’s daunting.
So I’m going to be learning a lot of techniques. A lot of recipe testing. I’ll be working with some friends and some colleagues to hear their food stories and have them teach me their tips and tricks.
As this journey towards Next Food Network Star isn’t just about food, we will also cover:
- personal development. I can’t go on a major television network if my life is a mess.
- living my truth. I have to be 100% me or none of this is going to succeed.
- taking care of my health. Not going to mince words: I am overweight. I’ve been eating like crap. All of this learning more about food means I’m going to be eating better. But I need to also MOVE.
Lots of food posts. A couple of other types.