When last your heroine checked in, Monday was getting the best of me and I let it. In fact, I’m going to be bluntly honest: I allowed Monday to get the best of me all week and into the weekend.
I let some perfectly tolerable downfalls end me straight into all sorts of backsliding. THEN I was going to try and hide it from y’all and play it off like it was no big deal, but it was a huge deal.
I broke every single one of the rules. All of them. Multiple times. It’s bad.
So what do I do now? How do I stop myself from doing this again? What is my motivation that is going to keep me going? How do I KEEP going and STOP stopping?
Especially when Mondays can be SO FREAKING MONDAY. Today’s Monday included someone lending me their car, and dropping it off at my house early this morning, but forgetting to leave me the keys. Then one of my vintage Pyrex lids broke. Then I broke three more nails, the crows got into our garbage (and it’s all over the backyard now), I somehow broke the bathroom sink (covering everything in water) and I spilled an entire cup of coffee into a hamper of clean, folded laundry that just needed to be put away.
I took one of the stupid Monday problems at a time. I tried fixing the sink, since that was the biggest problem, and water everywhere is an issue. I cleaned up the water. I watched two YouTube videos and realized that plumbing is not my thing. I arranged for someone more Mario and less Princess Peach than me to come take a look at the sink.
(Then I put bottles of product from under the sink into the sink to block it, so I didn’t use the sink on accident… because I know how it goes at 2am. I always wash my hands.)
Taking care of the problems one by one is the name of my game right now.
I can’t fast forward. That’s the lesson that I’m having to learn right now. I can’t pull the trigger on a decision like this that is going to uproot my whole life, turn lifetime habits upside down and expect everything to go smoothly.
SPOILER ALERT: your bad habits throw a total fit when you try and punt them. They will not go quietly into that good night, friends. They’re going to kick and scream and try to burn all your progress to the ground on the way out. It’s going to be brutal.
I cannot compare myself to people on the internet, or people in my real life, or people anywhere. I can only take a look at what I’ve done today and try to do a little better than I did yesterday.
If I do a little better every day, eventually I will be able to look back and see that the tiny steps I took along the way all added up to a long journey. I just have to stop stopping.
So what’s next?
Back to the rules.
- No “want” purchases. Must be an actual immediate need, no stocking up on things.
- At least 2 boxes from storage cleaned out every week.
- Two hours of television a day on weekdays.
- 90 minutes of social media per day (Twitter, Facebook, Pinterest AND Instagram).
- Laptop does not come into the bedroom.
- One screen at a time (not playing on the phone while the TV is running, or on the laptop and the phone simultaneously, etc. Exception made only for video chatting with Duke while watching television “together”).
- The kitchen sink is cleaned out every night before bed.
- No soda (La Croix ok) and no fast food.
I can do this. The new roommate is helping immensely with rule 7 already (she likes a clean sink too), so just…one choice at a time. One step at a time.
I can do this.
Want to catch up on the journey or check it out from the beginning? Check out the hub for all things “less of a sh*tshow” here.